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I’m just having one of those days.  Every now and then, I just get this inkling that I’ve gotten off track.  It didn’t happen fast and there isn’t one thing I can point to, but somewhere I’ve gone off the path.

I preached about investing the other week, and it really made me evaluate my own life and the things that I’ve invested in.  And quite honestly, I’m feeling a little convicted.  If someone were to look at my life from the outside, they’d think I was doing alright.  I’m not trying to brag, just trying to realistically evaluate my life.  I’m 27 years old, graduated with a Masters degree, doing what I love to do while at the same time making a good amount of money with my internet business.  I’m married to a healthy, beautiful wife and have one amazing son with another one on the way.  I just bought a house that is huge and beautiful, drive a car that is relatively new, have numerous great friends and a loving family. I can eat whatever and wherever I want, have bought some of the latest technology, and so on and so on.

But something about me isn’t satisfied.  In fact, something inside me thinks that all of this stuff is worthless.  I know there are people that are hurting out there but I’m much more content driving home and closing the garage, turning on one of my LCD TV’s that I own sitting in one of my La-Z-Boy’s that I own and just watching football.

You may think I’m being hard on myself.  But the truth of it is, I’m ready for a change.  None of the stuff God has given to me is wrong.  But what has happened is that slowly, I’m being comforted by the things in my life and I’d rather go after one of them than pursue God.  They have my heart rather than God.  I’d rather watch football than spend some quality time with God.  I’d rather look at Best Buy to see what’s new than explore God’s Word to see what’s something new I might learn about my Creator.

I don’t think I’m alone.  I think there are people in our church who aren’t satisfied either.  People who know they were created for something more.  I want God to have my heart.   If you want God to have your heart, what are you going to do about it?  I’m anxious to hear from you.  I personally am thinking about how I can be more giving and generous with what God has given to me.  I don’t want the stuff that I have to own me and right now it does.  If you are in the same boat as me, then try this from Francis Chan’s book, Crazy Love, “Jesus, I need to give myself up.  I am not strong enough to love You and walk with You on my own.  I can’t do it, and I need You.  I need You deeply and desperately.  I believe you are worth it, that You are better than anything else I could have in this life or the next.  I want You.  And when I don’t, I want to want You.  Be all in me.  Take all of me.  Have Your way with me.”

God, have your way with our church, and help us not find our safety, comfort, and security in the things of this world, but only in You and Your grace!